November 2009
6 posts
Misunderstood? I Think Not.
I have a habit of telling people I don’t want to love them. I just see it as me being honest, but everybody else says it’s rude, so I stopped telling them. I keep it to myself. And if they ask me or bring it up, I lie. So I guess I am a liar. I promise I’ll lie about it everytime anybody asks me.
I don’t think I deserve to be loved. That’s why I never want to love...
Will We Come Out Of This Unscathed?
I will start this post by saying that my boyfriend is absolutely amazing. He’s wonderful. He is everything I could ever want in a man, in a relationship, and even in a husband. It’s way too early to be thinking about marriage between the two of us (we’ve only been together maybe..2 months), but he embodies the characteristics I’d like to have in a husband. He’s sweet,...
It's a Party, And You're Not Invited
Reacclimate to my surroundings back in a city that just seems to eat itself and all I really wanna do is get back into you. No tension no worries, but every time it comes around I find grey ways to let you down, I can’t control my instincts, why can’t I be happy just to call you a friend. I thought things could be different, maybe I could do some good, come home spent to unemploy a...
Worthless
Him: I won't let you.
Me: He'll wait for me....
Him: You sound unsure. You know nobody is waiting for you. You're not worth that much to anybody.
I'm Overly Jealous
I’m constantly giving people the sideeye and questioning people’s motives for doing the things they do to/for me. I don’t think anybody’s motives are pure, and I’ve managed to convince myself that everybody is out to get me. I guess I’m also a little paranoid.
In my everyday life, you can’t see my jealousy…or general distrust of people. But in my...
I Obviously Have Trust Issues
That’s a given. Most people do.Fact is, I’ve been wronged in my past and, although I wish it hadn’t, it has affected me. I’m weary of relationships. Family, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends. Relationships in general. I’m not particularly close to my family. I’m very iffy about who I associate with and who I allow into my inner circle. And I’m definitely...